The “S” Word

I’m a numbers person. Always have been. Changing my lifestyle 2+ years ago and losing 30 lbs made me a bit more of a numbers person, for better or worse. As for many people, the scale became my friend and my enemy, depending on the day. It’s really hard to keep yourself from getting caught up in all the hubbub of working out, eating healthy, losing weight, etc. Especially if you’re one to read many blogs, follow people on Instagram, or just plain read magazines.

There’s the comparison trap; feeling the need to eat “perfectly” day in and day out, make sure you log enough miles at the gym, or lift heavy enough weights just so you can look like that other person. That person who posts their breakfasts, lunches, and dinners to Instagram many days.. and then you think, “if they ate it, why can’t I?<– One of my favorite posts!

Food Trap Comparison

Right, Giselle? 😉

You know this feeling, right?

I’m not the only one that gets in these funks, right?

When I was packing up my apartment in Baltimore with my mom, we grabbed a box for the bathroom and she pointed to the scale and said “don’t forget that.” Done. Packed up. Didn’t even give it any thought. Until later that night when I realized I would be scale-less for at least 6 weeks. Make that closer to 9 weeks by the time we get our stuff in our apartment..

A bit of panic set in knowing that I wouldn’t be knowing for quite some time. The last time I was scale-less for an extended period of time was 2 weeks on my honeymoon.. and that didn’t end so pretty! I have to admit that most days, I don’t even give it any thought. But I definitely have my days where I think about what it will say when I finally do see it again. After 6 weeks of living in a hotel and flipping my life and routine upside down, it scares me.

Sure, I’m having a hell of a time exploring this new city I’m in. Nathan and I can’t call ourselves foodies if we don’t take advantage of all of the incredible cuisine there is to offer here! And I’ve shared all of the amazingly wonderful salads I’ve found, but in reality, hotel living is not the healthiest way to go. Especially on a budget.

Kevins Quinoa Kale Butternut Squash Bowl Evolution Fresh

Ohh, Evolution Fresh. I wish I could eat your salads everyday!

What I don’t show you is the glass of wine that I’ve become accustomed to every night. Or the oatmeal raisin cookies that they give out with dinner that sometimes I just can’t say no to. Or maybe having so many options for breakfast everyday that I end up taking “just a little extra” because I can’t decide. And while this may not sound like I’m overdoing it, I often feel that way. Maybe it’s when I’m homesick, maybe it’s when I’m tired, maybe I just get frustrated for no reason, but sometimes it just. Freaking. Sucks.

I know, in the long run, I won’t look back at my experiences and think “damn, I really wish I didn’t eat that extra cookie or have that extra beer.” But I do know that sometimes I get caught up in the moment. And sometimes that moment is with the scale. And sometimes that moment with the scale is total shit. And writing this right now, I’m scared to have that shit moment in the near future. But I also need to remind myself of this..

And I need to focus on getting caught up in these moments..

Pacifica Beach

3 Generations

Melissa Poppy Me


Wedding First Dance Barr & Table

Because those are the moments that really matter.

And to be completely honest, I saw this post going somewhere else. But I’m happy with the turn of events.

Food for Thought

What are your thoughts on the scale?

Link Love #12

I always start my Link Love posts at the beginning of the week, often time before my current weeks’ post is published. This week, my post filled up so quickly! I love the blogosphere and everything that it has to offer.


Replace Skinny with Healthy - Olive to Run

Replace Skinny with Healthy – Olive to Run

Replace Skinny with Healthy – Olive to Run
Why Losing Weight Might NOT be the Answer – MusselFIT
“Knowing” Versus “Doing” – JillFit
Don’t Let the “Fat Burning Zone” Deceive You – PFIT blog
How to have a healthy relationship with the scales – Keeping Healthy, Getting Stylish


5 Days of Full-Body Workouts - Health

5 Days of Full-Body Workouts – Health

Gonna Make You Sweat: 5 Days of Full-Body Workouts – Health
Yoga Fit ARMS – My Healthy Nest
30 Variations of Lunges – Lifting Revolution
22 Kick-Ass Kettlebell Exercises – Greatist
10 Ways to Become a Faster Runner – FitSugar


Braised Chicken with Noodles & Vegetables - Notions & Notations of a Novice Cook

Braised Chicken with Noodles & Vegetables – Notions & Notations of a Novice Cook

Making Dakjjim (닭찜) / Braised Chicken with Noodles & Vegetables – Notions & Notations of a Novice Cook
Spiced Chocolate Popcorn – Gimme Some Oven
Butternut Squash, Brussels Sprout, and Bread Stuffing with Apples – Food52
Apple Nut Porridge – Running to the Kitchen
Sweet Potato and Quinoa Salad with Soft-Boiled Eggs – Naturally Ella

Food for Thought

Do you have a favorite post from the past week?

Dealing With Doubt

In my attempt to make this blog more about healthy living and my life in general, as opposed to “here’s what I’m eating!”, I’ve decided to do a little more sharing. Bear with me while I explore!

Doubt is something that rears its ugly face in everyone’s life from time to time. Whether you’re doubting the outfit that you put on, the workout you might have skipped in favor of drinks with your friends, or the food you’re eating, it can butt into your life when you least expect it.

Over the last 2 years, I’ve lost 30 lbs and maintained that loss with a healthy lifestyle. I have also, however, found myself being questioned by family, friends, and co-workers.


Before & After

“Are you still losing weight?”
“Are you eating enough?”
“I’ve never heard of that.. that’s not real food!”

After a while, it can really start to take a toll. I’ve definitely started doubting myself because the people around me question my lifestyle. And to me, that seems counterproductive. Why question someone who is trying to take pride in making the effort to live a healthy life when you wouldn’t outwardly question another person who stops at McDonalds everyday?

I’m not asking for praise when I break out my apple that I brought to a baseball game, knowing that I would want one [you bet your butt I did!], but I’m also certainly not asking for criticism either.

Salmon salad and an apple at the O’s game. It’s how I roll.

I’ll eat what I want to eat and your eat what you want. If you want to learn more about quinoa or chia seeds or coconut oil, ask me. I’m more than happy to talk. But if you’re going to tell me that I need to eat a piece of cake, keep it to yourself. I’m not going to tell you to go eat rabbit food.

Remember that we all make our own decisions based on what we feel is right for us. Seriously, have you seen how much I eat? Don’t question or criticize without truly understanding because you don’t always know the whole story as you think you may.

In a post from MizFit the other day, she says the following:

We create ourselves and our lives.

I dont have good physical genetics.  My body prefers to be soft/not muscular.  I watched women with better genetics gain muscle swiftly and easily. I came to a crossroads where I could either grow jealous or grow focused.  I chose the latter.  Resistance training taught me I am the sculptor of my body and my life.  I may not achieve goals as rapidly as some— but if I work tenaciously & tirelessly I’m ensured of progress.

Not only can I relate to this statement, it really struck a chord with me and has stuck with me the past few days. I choose the latter too. I work hard and eat the way that I choose because it’s what I want and it’s what I enjoy.

Grow focused.

Confidence is something you’re born with. Doubt is something you learn. So it’s about time I forget the doubt and find the confidence because I’ve worked my ass off to get where I am and damnit, I freaking enjoy kale!

Bagbys Ten Ten Rockfish Baltimore Maryland MD

Why would anyone say no to that salad?!

Food for Thought

How do you deal with doubt from friends or family?

How do you deal with doubting yourself?

Link Love #7

Another week, another set of fabulous posts!


6 Reasons You Shouldn’t Use Exercise As Your #1 Weight Loss Tool  - JillFit

You can’t out-train a bad diet.

6 Reasons You Shouldn’t Use Exercise As Your #1 Weight Loss Tool – JillFit
How to Lose Fat Without Losing Muscle – Muscle Evo
Keeping Fit After It’s Off: Create Your WHY – MizFit
Why Sugar Isn’t the Entire Story – Shape
How Bad Are Your Fitness Habits? – Prevention


The Dream Shuffle Workout - Lifting Revolution

The Dream Shuffle Workout – Lifting Revolution

Dream BIG: The Dream Shuffle Workout – Lifting Revolution
5 Tips for Morning Workouts [+ Training Update] – Better with Veggies
Bootcamp Workout – Fitness Perks
10-Minute Booty Burning Workout – Carrots ‘N’ Cake
TRX Workout – Peanut Butter Fingers


Baked Fig Plantain Bread Pudding - Purely Twins

Baked Fig Plantain Bread Pudding – Purely Twins

Baked Fig Plantain Bread Pudding – Purely Twins
Easy Creamy Buffalo Chicken Quinoa Bake – Half Baked Harvest
Black-Bottom Coconut Cream Tart [Vegan, GF] – Cafe Johnsonia
Fall Harvest Brussels Sprouts – Peanut Butter & Peppers
Apple Pie Quinoa Breakfast Bowl – Love & Zest

And if you missed the post on Surviving Whole Foods, definitely check it out! 😉

Food for Thought

What was one of your favorite posts of the week?